#10 My mother died from dementia. I took care of her to the very end. I didn't work for five years while I took care of her.
My brother and several health care providers suggested I kill her.
My brother refused to help her in any way,he lived less than 2 miles from her but never visited.
He wanted her to Die, he constantly told me to smother her with a pillow.
She herself didn't want to die. She was helpless and hopeless but never wanted to die.
What was I supposed to do?
Help her die? She wasn't suicidal,she was inconvenient and embarrassing to the family.
You don't know me, you don't know what I have carried.
Facile excuses and glib certainty are for lightweight people who have never shouldered real weight.
Her death hung over me as a metaphysical certainty for 5 years before she died. I had people pushing me to end it with "dignity".
If she had wanted to die,should I have smothered her to make my brother happy?
You don't know anything about real ambiguity and doubt.
Suicide is Self Murder. The key word here is SELF.
